I havent actually felt like this in a While

I feel like a teen again, rather than the skeleton ive been feeling like for a long time. maybe im just getting out there. thats it. i like this girl, i havent had a girl that i've been this interested in but im not sure all of the sudden why its like this because ive been hanging out with her for a while. but none the less i feel torn because i feel like i dont even have a chance and shes already made her mind up to not like me and shit like that but maybe im just ahead of myself but fuck i mean what can i expect from myself im shitty when it comes to girls anyways. ive been flirting kind of or trying to hint ya know, and i dont usually do that for just any girl. idk maybe im just being a total douche bag or something. i feel something though and thatt is rare